It's interesting....as sad as this whole thing has been and as emotionally devastated as I have felt, I still have such incredible empathy for those of you that have had it worse than I have. I realize that my W may come home tonight and admit some EA and drop the death blow (I pray she doesn't) but it is clear that you all have survived it. Right? Life does seem to go on.
I had a friend that went through a tough divorce a few years ago and there was OM involved. I didn't know what to say to him at the time other than I felt bad for him and believed he would survive and come out of it stronger and better off. He was the first person I called after my W dropped her bomb on me. I told my friend how sorry I was that I had no idea the depth of his pain and despair had been. I felt like I had been the world's worst friend. Of course, he said to not feel bad that you can't know what this feels like until you experience it and that I did help him.
I would not wish this on anyone. I don't want the growth opportunity. I want to be able to trust my W again. This stinks! Thank you all for the support.
I am off to read my DR book some more. I will watch closely and remain positive yet cautious. What else can I do, right?
___________ Me: 49 W: 51 Together 24 (M 17) SS31 SD 28 S 17 Bomb Dropped 8/12/2011 Still hopeful.
