Journal: I suspected this would happen. Today is the finalization of the divorce. I had to send a note to ex regarding S medication dosage. She twice now has indicated she prefers email. That's new, but I'm not interested in what she prefers to be honest - more about what works for me.
That text turned into an email. She accused me of being mean and nasty towards her. Really? She lamented that I don't communicate with her. Duh.
I responded. Know what? She is just trying to make it all my fault. Sounded like she is angry that I am not communicating with her. I told her I could, but what would we talk about?? I added a few things because I wasn't willing to have her make baseless accusations, so I refuted them.
I knew with the D today she was itching to "talk" to me. I translate that into her wanting to argue and blame. It is what she has been doing for a very long time.
I didn't say anything new really. I don't feel good about talking to her or getting sucked into the drama. But I don't feel bad about it either. Was just honest. Stuck to the facts and how that makes me feel.
With that, I'm out for the night. Was going to the beach to hang with friends, but had to work late. I'll readjust plans in this winter wonderland....
I feel at peace today. I was listening to a pastor on the radio talking about accepting what God puts in our lives. It hit home with me. Today at least I am all about acceptance. Tomorrow I'll remind myself of that
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
