The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul

[LearningPatience]

I slept horribly last night. Couldn't fall asleep until midnight, woke up at three, finally took some sleeping pills and slept 4:30-12:30. Called into work before falling back to sleep, hope I haven't messed up my sleep *too* much.

Feeling a little better off and on today. Had my last run before half-marathon Sunday (so yeah, still GALing a bit) and got out a little bit for food and sunshine. Going to a concert Monday and busy week next week, so just have to get through til Sunday. Nothing really planned for tonight or tomorrow, which is kinda nice for a change.

This probably goes against DB principles, but I sent W the following email last night while feeling a bit down:
Hey,
This is the video for Guns n Roses - Estranged. It's a long song/video, kinda melancholy, not sure if you'd even like it, but at least it has dolphins at the end:) Felt like sharing it.

W responded back at 4:44 am
I have not watched the video yet. Can you tell I can't sleep:)
I am so glad you are doing better than I am. I do know at some point I will be doing good too!

I do believe and do hope that we will salvage some sort of R after all of this. In some ways, this is even harder than when I was dark with her. Now, I get just enough contact with just enough hope and friendship that it reminds me of all the good we used to have.