I was in the bedroom alone, crying... and h walked in, saw me, had a big sigh and walked out. As he walked out he said he was tired of me feeling sorry for myself. I said nothing, although his comment really hurt.
I walked down the hall to go up the stairs and I heard him talking to himself and he said "love me love me love me....i neeeeed you" and then he said (expletive) ing unappealing.".
Went back downstairs thinking of your post and the timing of it. Then he came down and said he wanted to say something, and he said "you keep asking me what you can do to change. There is nothing you can do...its not you, its me and i just dont feel in love, i cant give you what you want from me. Im willing to do the counseling but I dont want you getting up your hopes".
Ctflor - girlfriend, it pains me to read this, because I was just like you in the beginning. I remember one day in the beginning we had spent the day together and when he was going to leave I went into my bedroom and started to bawl my eyes out. I thought he had left to go back to his apt. so I started screaming at the top of my lungs, "nooooo don't leave me"
He hadn't left. He came back into the room, gave me a quick hug, and said that he can't listen to me anymore. It was too much for him. He left as quick as he could.
Months later when I wasn't attached to him anymore we were having a conversation and he said that when I used to do that it made him want to be further away from me and to never come back. It was to depressing and made him feel so guilty.
As hard as it is, try try try to not be depressed around him. I know it seems impossible, but you have to put your best face forward and act like everything is okay. It might be the hardest thing you have ever had to do. but it will help.
big giant mental hugs coming your way from me!! Please try and have a nice weekend. smile, laugh. try.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
