2 days ago we went to provisional hearing to have me removed from the residence. Judge removed himself from the case because he knows her family. L's met with new judge who wondered why this case hadn't gone to final since it had been over 60 days. So the judge is ordering that I move out by 10/1 and the house is to be sold. I'm moving to her sisters house which is vacant and not likely to sell for a long time. Generous offer from them. Small town and not many rentals. At least it will be a place where the kids will be comfortable.
Last night I started packing. D7 asked "Daddy, what are your doing?" I told her I was packing to move and asked her if she understood. She nodded her head with a sad look and went to the computer. S9 then came in and asked same. He burst into tears and went to his room. W consoled him. After he took shower I went to his room and showed him some pics from when I was little with my dad and a snowman and he burst into tears again. He's very sensative and I couldn't help but just cry and hold him. I told him that I still loved him and would always be his daddy and be there for him. I've been reassuring both kids for awhile now. This morning I went to talk with their teachers.
I told W and she said "That's funny, I was just emailing them". I said "why is that funny, I'm a good father". I told her that a personal visit was better than an email. She asked my point. I just told her that it's more interactive. She's incapable of personal interaction in stressful situations. Afraid to show emotion. I know I'll be better off without this emotionless person in my life day to day. Still I had to be with her at 2 kids functions last evening and she just looked so good and I really miss being with her. Really being with her. It's really hard to detach.
Later this morning she txt that her brother would help me move on Sundays. Isn't that a kick in the pants? I didn't respond.
I miss the togetherness and security of the family unit. It is so special and it's really hard to let that go.
