Thanks VC, it is crazy at the minute!!, I'm all over at the moment, but never thought about taking a drink!!!!, I am so happy about that!
I never heard anymore from my wife yesterday after her call, I went to my AA meeting, came out and called the kids.
She answered the phone, I was just polite and asked to speak to the kids, she was fine and shouted them over, the kids sounded really happy to speak to me, and were excited that mum has ordered them a new scooter each??, is this some kind of guilt present???, I was excited for them, and they both told me they love me and missed me, and can not wait for tonight to see me.
She came back on the phone, and just said everything was ok, asked if I had anything to say, I said no, and we both said bye, all polite and calm, thank god!!!!
This morning I sent my usual, " everything ok with the kids" text, and got one back saying "yeah, no probs", I know they are fine and at school, but the fact I'm back to a text instead of a call is noticeable!!!!HAHA
I know I should not snoop, but I've found out a bit about OM
He's a bit of a ladies man, he likes a good drink, I'm surprised that she is with him actually on this alone?, he takes recreational drugs when home, and has a real eye for the ladies, my wife might be the only person he is "seeing" but there are others.
At times I want to tell her this, but whats the point, it will only sound like the comments of an angry rejected person.
I have also thought alot about what I actually want, yes I want my family back, but I'm not 100% sure I want her??
I love her with all my heart, but do I actually want to be with someone who has lied, cheated and sneeked around like she has, I don't think I do anymore?
Knowing what I know now, she has played me like a card for a long time, with lies and excuses for me to have the kids when he's around, and it frankly makes me sick in my stomach.
Her parents have told her she is a fool and been an idiot, she will be thinking about that now, but I cannot say that I actually want to be with her anymore
I'm very confused, but I have to maintain distance and be strong.
