To add another thing....I'm not what she wants me to be. I'm not even sure I can be that. I know who I want to be, but I'm not that right now either. What do I say, do, act when I'm around her?
Plus, I feel like she is blaming me for the affair. If I would have been there and gave her what she needed we wouldn't be where we are now. I WAS F@$KING SICK!!! I busted my butt to get better. So, fine, I wasn't there and she fooled around with someone else.
