This is where I keep getting stuck. I don't want to cut off all communication. Here is an example. It's getting cold here so I emailed my W and asked if the kids had mittens, hats, etc.
Here is my thing...right now, I am devastated by the affair. If I see her or talk to her I know I'm going to make myself look foolish. Look what I did the other day. I'm not ready to call and say what's up. The hard part is that is all I want to do now. I feel like everything is so fresh that I'm not rational. When I do get around her I am supposed to act like I've got it together and I'm happy. I don't have it together and I'm miserable. I feel lime I'm not allowed to feel pain and be emotional. That is one of the things she doesn't like about me. She says I'm negative. How can I not be at this point in the game?
I feel stuck. I'm goin to make some appointments with a DB counselor over the phone.
