[quote=InAPickleRight now's not the time though. May be after a few years. I'll be in a better more forgiving place. Right now I wouldn't take her back based on pure emotion, fear, anger, victimhood, righteous indignation, you know all those grudgy things. But I will get to that place; it's on my journey.
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My reasons for not wanting him back are very simple - he doesn't know if he wants to come back and that in unacceptable to me. I KNOW it would be really hard to start over with H, but a new relationship cannot last or exist without commitment from both people. Right now neither of us can commit. plain and simple.
Until I get the 2 things I won't do without...love only me and not plan B. I won't let him in.
He told me last night that he hasn't chosen yet. I told him that it isn't his "choice" any longer. He might choose me but I may not want him back. He will have to do some kick A$$ "action" to prove he even loves me the way I deserve to be loved in a marriage.
Until then I will just enjoy my days. I am still proceeding with divorce. He hasn't shown me any action that would make me think I should.
He is a smooth talker my STBX - he could talk an Eskimo into buying a snow manking machine and the poor guy wouldn't even know what happened. He would just smile with his big dimples, puppy dog brown eyes (so sincere) and the words just flow out like creamy chocolate.
Oh my, I just realized I must be married to a politician! lol!!!!
Happy Little Friday everyone
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
