I guess in my mind that I thought as long as my H and I were married, there was still that chance....that he would change, that he would never go through with a divorce....after all, he hasnt filed not once in 5 years.
I know I have already lost him. Just need my heart and head to agree for once.
Im afraid of all I will have to figure out on my own.
Im afraid of starting over with someone new.
Financially Im scared to death. Living on my income and child support and trying to run a business which is like running another house hold is NOT easy when the economy is bad. I would love to sell my business just to get out of the hole ive fell in since he first left me!
Those are just a few things...but even acknowledging them doesnt make me feel better. I think I will only feel better when I have successfully gone through all of them and come out the other side.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
