I don't know that I want to nudge you in any direction beyond protecting yourself and kids, but I will explain my earlier comment about you "not deserving" protection on your own (ie my belief that you didn't care enough about you).
You seemed to me, to be willing to wait forever as long as your h called to cry now and then on the phone. You saw that as remorse and assumed it would lead to a change on his part. (IT hasn't.)
You seemed willing to see the loss of assets and willing to listen to him go right back to OW after his "I'm so ashamed of OW! ...but, um, i gotta go back to her now"! talks...
so it seemed to me that you didn't feel YOU were worth protecting.
That's why I mention the kids so often. They need at least one parent looking out for them.
And if your fear of losing your h by doing something , as irrational as it may be, outweighed your desire for self preservation (which is sad enough)
Then I wanted to appeal to you as a mother.
Make sense?
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016