Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

Alone, I did some distracting and then some ignoring. She actually put down the phone and had a pretty long (15min or so) convo with me about her day, a specific event. OW texted a time or two and she didn't answer at that moment.

Baby steps. Baby steps.

But I fell asleep in the den. I woke up at 1 am - she was gone to bed. That was weird b/c she has always gotten me up, and told me when she's going to bed if I've crashed out there. It bothered me a little. Don't know why. It just was strange. OMG mind reading. LOL.

Gotta keep the baby steps going. We really are getting along really really well.

Good things :

1.She's still home with me and S4.
2. No signs of exit strategy/no talk of it
3. the 3 of us are having family time at night at least 3 nights per week now -- eating dinner together/playing preschool games/ watching a cartoon dvd....DB coaches suggestion!!!
4. I've realized the things that I have done to hurt the R and I've begun working even more on those thigns she has told me that 'sting' --- and continuing my own emotional growth

Things I want to change -- and need patience for!!
1. that dam* texting all the time to OW!!!!!
2. OW needs to go period !!!! * of course, I am trying to be the better choice --- really make the changes, do the work, and keep my dignity and class in the meantime.
3. I realize how much I love W and how much I need to HEAR her and to understand her needs. I'm SO working on this!