Regretful and not sure how to proceed

[In_Shock]

LOL -- no, that was actually one of my questions at the time. I'm a pretty eclectic political mix but I am for fiscal responsibility. No, it was money from a benefactor as a bonus for a year's hard work


By the way, I just found this that you, 25 had posted to someone else and I want to put it here so I will see it again and again. I'm still DBing the he!! outta things, and keep reminding myself to continue...

From 25yearsmlc----> "What ACTIONS are you taking to DEMONSTRATE change, not talk about it, but DOING...??
Any? How about GAL? These things matter. Just b/c they are out of your comfort zone doesn't make them less important.
This is the core of DBing...you gotta do the work or you don't get the cookie."

I especially like the last line!

I guess if saving our R was EASY we would take it for granted again at some point after the reconcilation. All this hard work will stay with me and I am becoming better every day. In undeniable pain a lot, but growth is not painless.