been gone so long couldn't find my thread! lol!

[TAMF]

U guys all crack me up - total honesty here. you know the other guy is a LBS - yet we have to be secret on the boards and not say who it is. There are more of us out there than people think.

The OP is one of the greatest guys I have ever met. And because of what he has been through and what he knows I am currently going through he has removed himself completely from the situation. I am so proud of him (even though it is painful for me). I even have to laugh because I have tried to contact him in my weakness - and he has gone "dark". ;)pulling that DB stuff on me why don't ya!lol!

In all seriousness, it is for the best and we both know it. I need to stand and face my situation and deal. I can't properly do that if I am constantly thinking of another man.

Still miss him and wish him all the love and peace that he deserves.

So here I am facing my H - I hate it, he pisses me off, I want to run my car into his (oh yeah, already did that didn't I?! ROFLMAO!!) H really is coming out of his MLC - so funny actually the things he says that he doesn't even realize they ALL say - take for example:

"working on the house the other day, it felt good for the first time in a long time. I used to take such pride in my house and yard and then I just hated it. Saturday I felt that pride again. and working along side you was really nice again."

"I love it when we just talk, you and I, not about our R. Just life. I enjoy that time with you."

"TAMF, will you please watch the last episode of Entourage on HBO. I watched it and cried. I never cry. Will you do me that favor and watch?"
-----I did watch and I cried because it was about a man who was losing his wife and he finally realized that he loves her and can't live without her. He has opera singers come and serinade her, quits his job and tells her that he loves only her and that he is taking her to Italy for a year.---------

After I watched the Episode of Entourage, I text him and said

"Mrs. Ari gets opera singers and her man professing passionate love for her and tells her he can't live without her, and I get...we broke it off, wanna see the text she sent me? I know that I have to win you back, but I have to go home to my girlfriend now, but I love you."

His reply was "I suck"