I'm sick of the highs and lows of this. One day I am doing great and feeling positive about things, and the next day I am down in the dumps.
I was extremely stressed last night and snapped at both of my kids. I felt badly afterwards and sat down with them and apologized to both of them and acknowledged that I overreacted.
I had forgotten how hard it is to be a single parent. Even though my kids aren't little anymore, I still face lots of challenges with trying to juggle schedules and bills and household things. I told them both that I appreciate everything they do to help me out, but if they could step it up a little bit it would really help. I know they are just kids and I would never, ever make them be adults instead of kids, but I'm just one person and I get overwhelmed at times.
I am blessed- I have great kids. There isn't discipline problems or behavior problems or anything like that and I am grateful for that.
I'm just one person.
I hope I don't spend the rest of my life alone.
It is tough stuff being a single parent, and you are doing a great job. You are going to have your moments of getting tired and frustrated, but you did the right thing by acknowledging your mistakes, apologizing to your kids and discussing with them that they need to help out more around the house.
DG, what do you think you could do or what change would have to happen in your life to bring on more consistent "up" days than "down"? When you close your eyes and visualize yourself happy and content, what do you see? Take your H out of the equation here, because you can't control his presence in your life (he's stuck, and you are not)...what in your visualization of happiness is there that you CAN control?
I believe you are a beautiful, bright, kind-hearted, fun young lady and an amazing mother, and you deserve to be happy. As you said, you are BLESSED. So what can you do to fully embrace that blessed life and live in happiness? You've taken so many positive steps, DG...what is the next one you can take toward happiness?
