One reason i felt sad was his words echoing in my head.
I dont feel passion foe you Im not attracted I love you but...
Keeps playing in my head to the point where i feel defeated
Taking yourself at your h's evaluation isn't doing you any favours. He is messed up right now and not thinking straight. Those negative voices play into our feelings of worthlessness. We are not worthless, but wonderful loving people who are here, getting help and advice form others. What are our spouses doing - indulging in self destructive and unkind behaviours, and we are allowing them to make us feel bad. Doesn't make sense does it?
Please do not go there. Approve of yourself, love yourself, value yourself. You are a terrific person battling for your marriage, and not giving in to what a crazy person currently thinks.
A husband worthy of you would be sorry you feel sad, not exasperated.