Thank you for sharing this with me. I had a terrible day. I went to bed sad and woke up sad. I tried everything to shake it off.
What is really interesting is...you were right. 100%. I was in the bedroom alone, crying... and h walked in, saw me, had a big sigh and walked out. As he walked out he said he was tired of me feeling sorry for myself. I said nothing, although his comment really hurt.
I walked down the hall to go up the stairs and I heard him talking to himself and he said "love me love me love me....i neeeeed you" and then he said (expletive) ing unappealing.".
Went back downstairs thinking of your post and the timing of it. Then he came down and said he wanted to say something, and he said "you keep asking me what you can do to change. There is nothing you can do...its not you, its me and i just dont feel in love, i cant give you what you want from me. Im willing to do the counseling but I dont want you getting up your hopes".
I just sat and listened and nodded, and i asked him if we could not talk about r anymore till counseling. And he agreed.
25, i used to be a strong woman...used to be a ballet dancer and performer. I used to feel good about myself, and since i had my d....its been all about her and all about h. There are not a lot of resources here...and when winter comes, it will be difficult.
I have to keep gal w/ the limitations. Need to stop being needy... Dependent... Etc.
Before he went to sleep, he hugged me and said i love you, and this time i didnt know if i should say ot back.
