Almost let my emotions get the best of me this afternoon. D25 told me she had text convo with XH, who still persisted in pushing her to come up and meet with him and his new wife. When D25 resisted, that she wasn't comfortable, he was angry and said again, as he always does, "If you only knew". Knew what? That I spent 20 years of my life supporting a man who has no appreciation at all? That I did the best I could for him at all times? Made me want to pick up the phone and go off on him, but I didn't. I resisted. "If you only knew" is his only answer. There is no story behind it. It just hurt my feelings to be reminded of how little he thinks of me and our R together.
