time and distance

[any chance?]

Tele:
I need to move into the mental space you are in. I am very far from that right now.

I feel like I am dying inside right now, and I am only one month into the S. Granted, it was 2 years of turmoil prior to her departure, but now I feel worse than ever.

I am really, really struggling with deciding between keeping the faith, being patient, GAL, and all the other wonderful thoughts talked about here, and accepting the fact that W is just done with me, our M is over, and that she is glad to be finally free of her shackles. I thought, and she has said, that we had a wonderful life together. Yes, the M needed repair and modification, and I have moved very far in that direction. But I doubt I will ever get a chance to demonstrate that. Feeling like I am used and defective goods is really causing damage to my psyche.

How do you know when it is time to just throw in the towel?