"Feeling quite lonely these days. Feel like a reject. Most everyone here is familiar with those thoughts. Just wish they would go away."
I know that feeling exactly, AC. You feel like damaged goods; like something is wrong with you. Every little insecurity is magnified 100 times.
We are all flawed individuals. There are no perfect marriages. What makes us different is that we have chosen to fight, not flee. We're fighting for our self-esteem, our self-respect, our peace of mind...and our ability to forgive and accept the flaws of others. We look inside ourselves and see all the garbage that needs to be taken out, and we work at that.
Our WAS's have chosen to flee. They refuse to look inside; they are afraid of what they will find. Much easier to run away from your problems than to face them.
I don't know if our W's will return; mine certainly has mapped out her future without me. So be it. I'm tired of looking back at what was and wishing it would come back. We have more worth and value than that.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
