All I know is that I've come really far and NO ONE is going to make me lose the ground I've gained in my relationship with myself. Not XH, not my parents, not anyone.
This is the first time in my life that I feel really "clear" or "at peace" with myself. I know I'm not acting from a place of manipulation or control or fear (most of the time) and if I am in that place of fear my inner voice/referee blows the whistle and says "time out", think about this.
There is a tremendous freedom in all of that. I'm just going to DB ALL these people, and detach, detach, detach, with love for what they are capable of but not allowing myself to be torn down by any of their drama.
Incidentally, this is all exactly congruent with what I'm learning in my Shambhala Meditation group, which is based on Buddhist teachings...the philosophy is the same. I wonder if MWD is aware of that connection?
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying
