time and distance

[any chance?]

Trying my best to move forward. Knee is almost better, and I have begun getting back to gym, which is a wonderful thing.

W has been gone 1 month now. Very little contact. Phone conversation we had last week indicated she is very anxious, easily disturbed. Says she likes certain things about her new location, and that there are somethings about our location that she misses. Can't read anything into it, other than to recognize that the resolution of this sitch is going to take a long, long time. Gotta wonder if I have the stomach for it.

When my mind is busy, I am just fine. When I let my mind drift, I get in trouble. Still waking up at 4AM every morning.

This week is hard. We have an annual party every September, and I am moving forward with it. Party is this Friday, and doing all the arrangments myself is a bit depressing. Feeling quite lonely these days. Feel like a reject. Most everyone here is familiar with those thoughts. Just wish they would go away.

Need to be productive in my work and move forward. Need to quit wallowing in dejection. Need to