Let it wash over you and feel it, every part of it...
Because in the future, it will creep up on you from behind, and take you down faster than the Rumpriders went down this weekend in fantasy football....
CS, you have grown so much since you have been here, and I fully understand how this threw you under a bus...
Somehow, someway, you are going to navigate your way through all of this crap and do what is right for you and your daughter....REGARDLESS of what she does.
And all of that anger...that schidt is like luggage, if you let it be.
The difference in how you are dealing with it, is what makes you the person that you have worked so hard to be...
That is what makes you different than what you were before all of this happened.
I guess it is that same old balance that is tough here.
Feel...
Without acting out.
That is part of the strength we need.
And I admit, a lot of my motivation for not acting on the anger is because I know it would be a gift for her. It would make it so much easier for her if she could say "see!"
I won't give her that.
I won't let myself be beaten down like the dominicantuberiders.
BITS
Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.
I haven't wanted to say it...but I think you are seeing it. Your STBXW is now beneath you in every way.
That doesn't take the pain away. It doesn't take the anger away. It doesn't take the betrayal away. It doesn't take anything away, but someday it may make it easier to move on...knowing that the person you loved was deeply, deeply ethically flawed. The stupidity and selfishness of these two is mind-numbing. It literally makes me sick.
As a co-worker of mine said, after a certain amount of bad behavior, your Ex becomes one of 'those' people. The type you can't even relate to anymore because their behavior and lifestyle is so trashy. Come on, birth control people. Its been around since the 1830s. Even an aspirin will do the trick if you hold it between your knees.
You have my permission to begin referring to the OM as your STBXW's 'baby daddy'.
Shackin' up with a married man while still married yourself because your pregnant with his baby - now that's class!
I feel so bad for the OM's family. He's a grade A D-bag too.
Me: 35 Him: 43 Together: 19 1/2 years 1st Bomb (IDLYAM): March 2011 2nd Bomb (OW): April 2011 He abandons home/bills/everything: May 2011 He's bought a new house for OW: September 2011
