My H and I made an agreement between the two of us last year. He agreed to pay about $200 more a month in Child support. Under the condition that if at anytime he needed help or I needed help we would help each other out financially IF we were able. I have given him a $20 every now and then if he needed it and also he has done much more for me, like buying me a new compressor for my cooler at work earlier this year. Thats just an agreement we have ALTHOUGH I would rather find ways to do on my own.
Im kinda getting anxious now. Our year separation will be Oct. 25 and its getting closer and closer. I hate thinking about it. Even though I dont want him as he is now, it still hurts to think about a divorce. I have been wondering how much longer i will have insurance through him, so I decided to ask today by text if he had considered keeping me on his insurance as long as possible until I absolutely had to be taken off. It costs nothing for me to be on his insurance through the family plan. Well after I sent that text I started shaking....shaking at the thought of this coming to an end.
Im scared to death people. I dont know if I will be able to handle this well. I know it will come and go and I will heal just as before, but it scares the death out of me....if I shake at the thought of just thinking about it, what will happen when it really does happen??? When I get those divorce papers, how will I be able to handle it???
Just questions I have. Its scaring me and making me sick to my stomach....ugh....advice???
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
