still kicking

[ninelives]

hey all.

especially 25. still above ground. very challenging. cry alot but rarely in front of boys. went back to work but only teach one class in the afternoon. coaching my vb team, practice alot. keeps mr focussed. miss her alot, letter she left for me gives me mixed emotions,

boys r a puzzle. oldest is robotic, still havent seen him cry or really show emotion. checking his back for usb port when he sleeps.

younest has cried and is going about buissiness as usual but has feelings of sickness at night. is often attached to my hip,

i had run in with om outside his work. i wanted to drop him with a dirty rugby tackle when i saw him. called him every name in the book. he went back inside where he works. i followed and continued my barrage . i mentioned that he liked to hit women. well here iam, what can u do with men u effing coward. he did nothing.

his mom picked him up as he is under house arrest. i followd him to her truck opened the door and told him to look at me. i told him he killed my wife. that he left my boys without a mother.

his mom started screaming at me. he said nothing but glared at me. effing coward that he is. took everything i had not to feed him his nuts but i didnt touch him.

got call from police warning mne to stay away. i will but i also know if i didnt have my boys, i would b in jail and he would b in the hospital if not worse. i will post again.

thanks for all the support.