Just journaling....... Ended up calling my W tonight before I left work. She hadnt replied to my email, and I'm heading overseas tomorrow, so I wanted to check if she got it. She was flat out all day, so she hadn't checked her emails. I was fine on the phone, very quick and just said I'll be away for a while not perhaps let's talk next week about coming by the house or getting the keys off me to come over. I was quick and got off the phone first.
I was chatting to my boss tonight about my sitch....discussing what went wrong, what's been happening, what my W's reasons are. We talked about her getting scared about the future and not wanting to bring a baby into a relationship like this, and particularly more now, so how could we reconcile. My boss, who is female, understood that and said it's not fair to bring a child into an unhappy M. Given my W comes from a broken home, she noes how bad that is. I guess that just makes me feel useless, that as if my W would ever consider coming back. She wanted kids, so she's not going to bring any into a marriage like this. It's too risky for her, and whilst this is a "reason" - it sounds pretty solid to me and makes sense.
M 35 W 31 Separated 2/2011 but still together Ended it 4/2011 Together 8 yrs Married 3.5 yrs Lawyers involved 6/2011
