Devastated Pt 3 - WAH and OW

[Julz]

Had a phone call from my SIL last night inviting me to my nephews 21st. I declined. Even thought OW is not invited, my H has told my SIL that there will be 5 of them at the party (H, OW, OW's D, my D and S).

Anyway I have big plans for the weekend. Would much rather stick to my current plan then go to the party.

I don't even know if I belong here anymore. I don't want to save my marriage anymore. I love my H and probably always will - he's the father of my kids and he got me to where I am. But in less then 4 months I have grown so much and I now know that even though I was happy in my marriage I can be so much much happier in life.