PLEASE!!! Need help quick! Calling all vets!

[tadpole1025]

It is a little early to start a new thread, but after the text that I received from W today, I thought it would be a good time. My previous thread is here:

I've got 54 days to receive a miracle

I was at work today and received a text from W. I had to go to the restroom because it brought me to tears. I really don't know what to make of it. I have not responded yet because I wanted to get some feedback. However, I don't want to wait too long because I don't want her to think that I am ignoring her.

Please keep in mind that I am only 30 days from a D and my ultimate goal is to still save my marriage. I asked her for a delay a few weeks back, but she said I wasn't entitled to ask for one.

The text that she sent me was right out of the blue. I have been completely dark on her especially in the last 1-2 weeks. Please tell me how I should handle this:

H, Regardless of the reasons why I left, I am sorry for hurting you. To be honest, I never thought that you would even care. I am sorry it ended. I'm sorry my love died and I miss what we had 15 years ago. With that being said, we are not healthy for each other. I do care about you and think about our demise everyday. I heard a quote the other day: "nothing good ever ends well." I guess that is true....someday, I hope to be good friends. Take care, W.

My God. What do I do about this?

It's the first time that I've received anything like this out of her.

Is she peeking out?

She obviously still wants a D.

She made the friends comment. That is after saying that she does and then she doesn't want to be friends.

I just wish that she would talk to me.

She keeps saying that we are not "healthy" or "good" for each other. I wish I understood this.

PLEASE tell me what I should do.

I want to call her so f*cking bad.....

Tad