Journal: I'm sick of nutty people Ex. I decided to respond to an email. No good deed goes unpunished sometimes... I texted a reply to an email that really should not have been sent in the first place regarding a bill. She had no need to ask when to expect the money, since that's spelled out in the agreement. I sent the text letting her know it would be there next week. Her response? Thx. I prefer to get an email.
Really? NOW you want email vs. text? My how things have changed.
I am not responding, but it's silly. I blame it on the full moon. Why? Because it seems every time there is one she gets nuttier, if that's possible. She has no need to contact. At all. I texted her the results of s's doctor appt a little while back. Response wasn't needed, but she replied like a human and said thx.
I suspect I'm a little angry (can you tell?) and annoyed.
Recently, I ended a R with a gf. She was great, but I realized I needed some space. I wasn't treating her well for a while, and didn't like that about me. It's not her, it's me. I need to finish some things up. GF was and is great. Giving me space and very graciously I might add.
I'm noticing that I care about things less and less. I've been unplugging again for the past few months - partly because of the new job being stressful and partly so I can clear the decks if that makes sense. I really need to clear the decks and square things away.
I didn't ask for this journey, but I really do enjoy what life has to bring. I'm sad about GF but also not as sad as I'd like to be about such things. I miss her, but can't do both - focus on the things I need to do for me and meet her needs right now. It's sad because she's great and I'm angry becuase of the situation. I know I have some anger still towards ex. I was even finding myself confusing some of that anger towards gf and I knew that was VERY wrong. Needed to get away and clear the decks.
At church tonight with the youth group. Good times mostly. Found out that one kid's dad (a friend of mine) found the neighbor kid after killing himself. I really feel for him and the family. A 14 yr old kid that killed himself! Tragic. Senseless.
The rest of my day was really uneventful, but good. Lots to deal with but all in due time...
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
Ex. I decided to respond to an email. No good deed goes unpunished sometimes... I texted a reply to an email that really should not have been sent in the first place regarding a bill. She had no need to ask when to expect the money, since that's spelled out in the agreement. I sent the text letting her know it would be there next week. Her response? Thx. I prefer to get an email. 