Need to journal a bit to get some frustrations out....

The last couple of days have been trying ones for me. Being separated has been good for my H and I to miss each other, but it's so frustrating how inconvenient it is to everyone (but him). I feel like I'm constantly rushing around to get the kids' things ready to go on his nights (and with four kids, all in school and in extra-curricular activities, that is a lot of stuff). This morning, I went at our regular time to pick up 2 of the kids to drive to school, and no one (including him) was ready to leave on time. I had to help pull school uniforms, backpacks, hair, etc together. He sent me a text after that said, "Sorry" followed by "You didn't even talk to me this morning. frown." I responded, "I'm sorry; I was just busy trying to help get the kids out the door."

I just need an extra ounce of patience today. I get so frustrated thinking about how much money we are spending (that we don't have) on another house and all it's expenses. We are pretty much back to acting married except for the fact that we are separated overnight (and on the kids' nights here, he has been staying some). I think also running into ex-OW on Sunday (or rather nearly getting run over) plus another encounter I had today with a particularly nosy older woman in town (she very pointedly looked at my ring finger...the nerve) added to my frustrations. But again, I don't need to let other people and situations I can't control ruin how much progress we have made.

I'm not going to say a word of this to him...I just had to get it out.

There...I feel better (a little) already.

aka lc4 : )