Have not posted in awhile things have been pretty quiet on the home front since husband has been gone hunting. They night before he left I asked if I could lay down next to him in his bed he said sure. He wrapped his arm around me and gave me a few kisses. Then he asked if I minded if he read. He was reading when I came in. Said that I did not mind he held me has he continued to read. I stayed there for awhile before I excused myself and went to my room. I then came back in and asked if we could talk. Started out talking about his therapy session that day not any big revelations. He said that he had another session on 9-30 and then after that his counselor wanted to meet with both of us. Asked him if I had cooties since he is not able to sleep in the same room with me, he said no that it is going to talk time and small steps for us to get our marriage back to where it used to be. Told him that I realize that and for me I am ok for now with him sleeping in the other room but I just needed to know what his thinking was on it. Then I did a no no. I told him that it hurt to know that if he was with OW they would be sleeping together. That made him uncomfortable and he told me so. Guess I struck a nerve. Changed subject fast! Continued talking about small things then I told him that me coming in and bugging him was his fault for being so good looking he laughed, he then commented on me being so skinny.
Next morning woke up at 4:30 to be up when he left on his trip. His friend Brad picked him up. I few minutes I started to receive texts from him. Texted back and forth for about 30 minutes before I ended it since I wanted to go to sleep. He called when they were in a small town that has cell coverage before they head up to their campground. He said that he loved me with out me saying first. (But what does that mean since I still remember the I love you, I care about you but I am not in love with you.) How do you know when that phase is gone and I love you really means I love you??? Husband called last night talked for a few minutes, he also said I love you again. Said that he would call on Thursday.
M 48 H 51 Married 30 S 29 D 28 GD 5 GS 17 months Sep May 2011 H home 8-18-11
