Does it surprise you that you have changed? It sounds like it does
I know you're struggling a bit. It's not what was expected and dealing with the changes that are occurring have, for me, been harder than dealing with the constant barrage of cr*p. But it quickly becomes more reasonable and easier to deal with as you adjust.
Perhaps the difference in behavior is causing some of the churn in you? Causing you to notice that you are different? I suspect this is the first real time you've had to see your changes with the H as backdrop.
Maybe? I suspect you like what you see in you as well. It shines through...
I don't think you are finished dealing with your feelings for H though, now are you....? Understandable. As is the dealing with who you are in relation to your H. What you once were, you are no longer, and defining what you are in ALL situations still needs to be done, right? Seems you are getting that figured out though.
Be at peace TAMF
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
