Treading water - time and patience

[NYCPeter]

More journaling - another night in the marital bed.
W went to bed around 11pm - I followed about 20 mins later (for some reason I think she would be uncomfortable us both going to bed at the same time). The fact that the bedroom door was slightly open (usually shut tight when we slept apart) was a sign to me that she welcomed me sleeping in the same bed.

When I got into bed, she murmered something as if she was half asleep, I asked her to repeat and she didn't (had her back to me). I asked if she was ok with me sleeping here and she said yes. She did have her back to me the whole night (which I find kind of off-putting), but didn't resist when we spooned (we only have a queen size bed).

She has IC today - would be interesting to see how she behaves this evening, W is not someone to speak up unless she's encouraged to do so (hence the WAS with no warning), so suspect she'll be talking to IC about sleeping together and whether she truly feels comfortable doing this. I have a feeling she is not entirely comfortable doing this.

I'll stick to this routine and see what happens.

We have MC on Thurs, should I broach the subject of sleeping in the same bed and how much happier it makes me?