OK, I've cooled down. I didn't approach this out of neediness, I approached this because I wanted to meet this woman. I went way out of my comfort zone and made it happen. I worked on her for a month in front of everybody because that's what I had to do to make this happen. I made something nice happen for me and nobody is going to sh!t on me because of it! And yes, I do feel joy when I'm with her, talking to her, FBing with her and texting her. I smile more than I can remember. It's so nice to have someone who I can talk to every day who wants to know how my day went. Tonight she wanted to know if I was OK, she asked me to tell her slowly what was wrong, so I did. I fear losing that and going back to being alone, I get anxious. So, tonight I talked to MM about all this. I told her "I don't want to push you away but I want you to know I care" Anyway, she told me she is fine with where we are together and how I'm treating her. She said "I am so glad that you care for me, it makes me very happy" She also called me "lolo", grandfather, because I think so much I'm like an old man! I said "are you being mean or loving" she said "Yessss". We also talked about the differences in our cultures around dating and I told her I'm just not sure how to go slow but I'm willing to try but she has to help me. I said that if either of us needs space we need to tell the other. So anyway, I don't need any advice. I'm going with my instincts and they appear to be pretty good at this point. OT, are you paying for lunch?
