New any help would be greatly appreciated

[In_Shock]

yes, nicole-- it is NOT all your fault. In my sitch, if my W had talked to me -- seen a C -- I really think things would have been ok. It certainly wasn't because I didn't care or didn't try - read the book the 5 Love Languages. It's eye-opening.

Lots of experienced DBers here that will help get you through this time in your life. I encourage you to journal, post often, and people will get interested in your story and offer some WONDERFUL advice and wisdom. Welcome, and as others say, sorry you are here.