Wife no longer in love with me - Part 3

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Thanks Lucky.
Not feeling the best.....very down.
Had a session with my IC last night, which I like but it makes me sad. We identify a lot of the problems and my behaviors and talk about all the changes I have made to my life for the better of my M. She wants me to meet with my W and tell her, tell her about my new less stressful, less travel job.....let her see the differences etc. I can't do it, my W doesn't care.....she doesn't care about me anymore, as far as she's concerned I'm not part of her life anymore. My C wants us to get together and talk about reconciliation - it's not going to happen though. I just said that if she wants to talk then she will initiate contact, she knows where I stand.
Have another session with my DB coach tomorrow. I'm starting to feel this is all just getting a bit useless......I miss my W so much and miss and grieve for everything we were supposed to do together and what we had.
I'm off overseas again later this week, which is a good distraction, but I hate sitting on planes for 4 hours - my mind just runs away thinking about her.