You're right, V...I'm trying to power through all of this because I want to be over it NOW.
A few weeks ago I was satisfied with the progress I had been making. Lately, though, the reality of the situation and the feelings of loneliness and abandonment have been taking over that sense of satisfaction. I've been comparing myself to the OM and inventing reasons why W is so drawn to him. I wonder if I will be alone for the rest of my life, and question my ability to love and be loved. I want to GAL but often feel paralyzed by my own insecurities.
Maybe I can get a blood transfusion from jb...
No, I'm not going to sell or trash any of my W's belongings (Rick1963, that makes me think you still do not have a handle on your anger issues...just sayin') nor will I push the D issue. It just feels wrong that I would still be married to someone who is living with another man.
Thanks to all for your continued support and responses. I do need to breathe and live life despite what is going on, because what I'm doing lately isn't working.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
