Do I stay or do I go?

[anyhope]

Thanks for the quick response. Thing with the party is that right now I don't feel like I'd be strong enough. It's a big one for him and for one reason or another I know he really wants me to come and part of me wants to be there, but I know I will start crying at some point unless during the week he's gone (he gets back just on time to make it to his own party) I gain some strength back.

I was pretty stressed out over finding an apartment. I never would have though it would be so hard with a dog, but after seeing this place today I feel much better about that. It's attcually right next door to where my mom lives and right across from a huge park so I can just take my dog there. He'll love it.

I know about the STD's wasnt too drunk to think about that so he did have condoms on him and we used it for the first time.

Btw I think I forgot to mention that while he keeps saying how he wants nothing serious from ow, the topic of having children was discussed and she (22) said she'll have a baby with him. Now I really really hope this was a joke. Even if my marriage fails I pray to God he has kids with a sane woman.. Basically he said he's at the point where he no longer cares who the mother is it's time for him to have kids.

I still stand by what I've been telling him all along, that whatever his age he is immature to be a dad. Or maybe not even that but not dad material. He is not family oriented at all. His main thing in life is to be with friends and have a good time, so whatever happens I'm glad that we don't have any kids yet, I'm just hoping he won't have any with her.

Thanks for the chocolate suggestion :)) I could use some right now I think..