Do I stay or do I go?

[aeolianchaos]

Anyhope:

What would going do for you?

How would that affect your integrity?

It sounds like you've decided to drop H completely @ the moment. So why would you go to his birthday?

Careful w/ the sex stuff - STDs and all that.

I'm scared of the idea of uncertainty of how I will support myself, but what choice do I have.. Other people live alone and they survive to, so I guess so will I.

You will get through this. You're obviously a very intelligent person and this may be the beginning of a period of real growth and prosperity for you.