E - I am glad you hanging on to your sense of humor, although I am sure is only by a thread.
I am thinking the forgivess could be a long, long, hard process. And I believe it may be awhile before you'll be able to start that process. You have some emotions to feel first.
I am sure you don't know WHAT to believe right now, especially anything that comes comes from the OW . She is definitely on a mission. I'm sure you have your eye on her. She's a very irrational woman. Not telling you anything you don't already know, but your H has a long, hard road to earn your trust.
You're still here. That says a TON about you. You are standing tall for your kids. And we're standing here behind you.
