Unexpected phone call from H - wanted to talk about S7 visitation. My request that he set up time for a phone call with me was met with resistence - "At the rate [I] reply to email, that seems difficult", he said.

He's very adamant that he wants to move to 3 days/4 days, and I just don't think that's right for S7. I'd rather a schedule closer to that of a couple of my friends, where it's an every other night sort of thing. It's really just an augmentation of the current schedule, and it allows S7 to see each every day, even if it's just a short while in the morning.

In talking with S7, he doesn't want to go 3 days without seeing me, or 4 days without seeing H, and I don't think he should have to.

Obviously this puts a crimp in H's travel to visit OW, so he's not a fan, but I'm not going to make decisions about S7 with that in mind - I'm not trying to make things hard on H, but I'm not going to sacrifice S7 to make things easy on him.

Talking to H still leaves me anxious and shaking, but I'm the best advocate S7 has, and I need to keep that in mind.


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11