I just want to tell her how I feel and I know that I'm not supposed too and that feels wrong. I want to tell her how I feel about her, but I know that would come across as desperate in her minds eye. I'm doing so many positive things that after more than a year I don't know if I should be happy that she finally speaks to me at all to tell me she resents me. It really is as if there is nothing I can ever do right for her and she will never open her eyes.
This is very difficult, everyone here will probably tell you that if the change is real, she will notice. you won't have to tell her. I know i failed at this. I was always talking to my H about what I was learning and feeling. It didn't work of course. only time H noticed was just a week ago (over 1 year since bomb dropped). Quite simply I got to the point that I didn't care if H noticed. I was doing it for myself and that is all that mattered.
You are doing really good I think! Keep working on yourself, right now the changes you make might be motivated because you want you wife back, but soon it will be just for you. When this happens you will know.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
