"OK. Let me just start by saying that the reason I haven't told you yet was because I was worried you would become very upset and wouldn't be able to handle this, but I realized how much you have grown through all of this, and it is not fair for me to assume you can't handle information. You seem to be doing really well for yourself and Em. I am really proud of your changes. I apologize, because though I know how you have matured, I am aware that this news is probably still painful to you, and I am very sorry for that. Please know I didn't plan for this to happen right now, especially with the emotional turmoil I have felt this past year. A little while after daddy died, while I was in the middle of grieving. I realized I accidentally got pregnant. Although this probably would have happenened a year or so from now, this was not planned. I was completely surprised...I din't even know how to tell my mom. She does know now, and if you need someone to talk toabout this I'm sure she would be happy to hear from you. She is in LA right now and is on her cell. I haven't even told anyone at work yet, but enough time has passed, and I have done a lot of grieving for daddy and soul searching. I am happy. I love Emily and she will always come first for me. I will always take wonderful care of her, and she will be a great big sister. Please don't let that worry you. I am just sorry that my timing is so careless. The last thing I wanted to do was cause you more pain. I hope you are well, like I think you are, and I hope you find happiness."
Funny.
I could have said it with two words...
It took her more...
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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.
