The truth is that I'm dying inside. I am trying so hard to do the right thing and the more I try the more I seem to screw things up. I'm trying the best that I can. I dont know what to think, say or do. I'm lost, confusd and I can make sense of anything anyone is saying. This is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. I've tried so hard to be strong, I have no energy left. Everytime I see her I'm not able to breathe...I have panic attacks. That's why I don want to see her because every time I do I feel lime I'm dying. Pathetic, yes, I'm sure.
I'm tired of pretending I've got it all together...I don't. My world feels line it's collapsing all around me and I'm lost.
