Chaos, you are right...i need to be doing these things. I am stuck in fear and hopelessness. Everything is slipping away. My hopes and dreams. The promises he has broken keep stinging me today. I go from crying to being angry with him. He is so far away now i cant reach him.
I'm so sad today. The gap widens between us. My grip on him has been tight. The more i see that i MUST let go, the pain takes over and im pulled under.
I want to smile again, laugh, and feel happy. I want it to be with my h...i am caught up in thinking of old memories, when we met, married, and all the things we did together. I want him to bring his heart back to me....i want this pain to end today. I want him to walk up to me and tell me what a fool he is and how he wants us back.
Reading this from you brings me back to 1 year ago. It could be me writing what you wrote (it is/was all of us actually), evvery single thought centered around him, your m, your family. And now today I don't feel that pain - I only have memories of the pain. It will get better, only time will help you. and working on your own happiness. and taking care of D. right now you need to focus on other things - I know you think this is impossible - but it can help. read a book, watch a movie, go for a walk. KEEP BUSY.
good luck (((hug)))
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
