Chaos, you are right...i need to be doing these things. I am stuck in fear and hopelessness. Everything is slipping away. My hopes and dreams. The promises he has broken keep stinging me today. I go from crying to being angry with him. He is so far away now i cant reach him.
I'm so sad today. The gap widens between us. My grip on him has been tight. The more i see that i MUST let go, the pain takes over and im pulled under.
I want to smile again, laugh, and feel happy. I want it to be with my h...i am caught up in thinking of old memories, when we met, married, and all the things we did together. I want him to bring his heart back to me....i want this pain to end today. I want him to walk up to me and tell me what a fool he is and how he wants us back.
These are the things i am struggling to let go of. I miss him so much. He is sitting on the other end the sofa watching tv....but he is thousands of miles away.
He mourns the loss of ow as i mourn the loss of him. She is living in another country.. He told me the other night she never returned his affections. He is like a love sick teenager, who built up a fantasy that crashed in on him.
You are so right chaos....im entangled in this huge mess.
Detachment works by starting to focus only on me and my d? I guess i will fake it till it happens.
