25yearsmlc- I don't want to spend anymore time trying to understand. I do the "stop" signs,etc. But, 20 years together it's hard to just put away in my mind. I do feel like this D needs to become final before I can really move on. BUt, even then I will still be reliant on his money. And, it is a lot of money. Maybe trying to understand OW and H will just give me a reason-an answer. I honestly don't know. I guess I honestly want an answer to why and like you said I am NOT going to get one. He's going to drag this out and now I have to have L serve him a support order which will now take us both to court. I know I repeat myself. I just feel a huge load of responsibility for my kids and their mental as well as my own. I really do believe he thinks I am the complete reason for his unhappiness. This I know is a LIE. He is sick. But, interesting how he can still do his job and go home every night to his OW and child. Okay - venting now. Weekends are hard.
