had convo with H last night told him that I am finalizing the divorce. He told me on Tuesday that he had broke up with ow and it is Friday and he still lives with her! I told him he had done this to me for the last time. He said, "you told me you were happy without me, what was I supposed to do?" I replied that he could live alone. I told him on Tuesday that he could move back in and I would go to my mom and dads house. He had no reply. I said,"so all that talk about winning me back...you were going to do that while living with OW?" no reply. I reiterated my guidelines...love only me and not plan B. I asked him if he thought he could be that man for me. He said he didn't know. I told him that a long time ago I said that I loved him enough to let him go, now he needs to let me go. He said, "I know".
The way I see it, I am looking like the path of least resistance. And I refuse to be that path. How miserable I will be, how miserable he will be.
We spent the day together getting the house ready for a showing. We got along just fine, friends. He tried to hug me and I backed off. I have no desire what so ever.
He knows that Monday I will finsh the process. Not much left to do. he doesn't seem sad at all either. it's all good.
I had no tears. No sadness about H.
Sad for other reasons now.
Oh well, I have overcome heartache that I thought would kill me, I can do it again.
TAMF m:41 xh:41 T: 20 M: 15 D: 16 D: 14 Bomb dropped: 7/3/10 separated: 7/15/10 H moved in to new apt. with OW: 7/1/11 divorced: 8/26/12
