might seem like I'm telling you what to do. I'm really not.
Just saying what it could be like, perhaps, in time and with work...
Good luck and no judgement will come from here if you decide you simply cannot forgive it in a way that makes sense.
I never saw forgiveness growing up, so for me it was a learned skill. Took time even once I chose to do it.
Oh, I didn't take it as judgement. Just perspective. I'm very open right now. And I think everything you said makes perfect sense. Perhaps forgiveness is a lesson/skill I need to learn because I didn't see a lot of it growing up either.