As difficult as things are at times, I still keep thinking that, in the long run, you always end up thinking "Thank God for unanswered prayers" I look at old boyfriends that I once thought were wonderful, and how they ended up. I see friends that have been married for 30+ years, but do nothing together. As my minister said a few sermons back,"God puts you on earth for a reason, and being married to a particular person isn't it"
So, in the lonliest of times, I try to remember that my purpose in life isn't to be anyone person's wife. That's just a side note to our lives, and sometimes it's not a happy one.
If XH knocked on the door today and wanted desperately to come back, would I let him? In all honesty, yes. But would it work? Very doubtful. If the changes have not been made, the devils faced down, and the pain acknowledged by us both, I believe it would be just another winning interlude to a losing battle.
Do I believe in Miracles? Of course. Anything is possible, but perhaps there are more important miracles to be had in our life than the salvage of our marriages. We come out of this stronger and wiser, perhaps a little gun-shy. I am not always successful in keeping my feelings in line with this, but I try my best.
